Things are constantly changing. I understand the concept and I both embrace it and push it away.
Things change around you and no matter whether you try to stop it's going to happen. Even if you try to hide from the world, things will go on changing without you, expecting you to adapt to the new situation.
Shorts-girl changed. She was wearing leggings today. I was shocked. And disappointed. (For those who don't know who shorts girl is, I have mentioned her in a previous post) I liked being able to depend on the fact that every day when she walked to and from wherever she was going with her backpack and her runners - whether boiling hot or raining or windy - that she would always be in her shorts and all would be right in the world.
But she changed. And I don't like it.
I could fill the world with all the things I don't like.
But I won't. Because that would be depressing and who really wants a list of things people don't like? I prefer to make lists of things I do like...things I want to do in my life, with my life, books I've read, quotes I adore.
I started writing a new blog of quotes I like.
See what I mean about change. The topics change, the mood changes, the intent changes. I'm changing now as I write this. It's both a great thing and horribly annoying. Because you never really know what you're going to change into next. Whether it will be for good or bad. Most of the time, I want it to be for good, however I find myself mainly taking the pathway to bitchy evil.
It's like a security blanket. If I can't be 'the bitch' then who can I be? What role do I play if not the bitch? Most people are quite happy to give me the title, and I use to quite well. But I don't know whether I still want it....would anyone else take that title, do it justice?
Ramblings great. You never know where you're going to end up. More of that motherfucker: change.
I don't think you're a bitch. I think you speak your mind. I admire that and I think the world needs people who do that. I sure know that I probably don't do it enough.
ReplyDeleteAlso, this blog seems very appropriate for my current situation (stupid job) :P Too much change for my liking though.
Keep writing because I very much enjoy reading.
Tully
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Wouldn't life be a bore if there was no change in it though? :)
ReplyDeleteYes it probably would be, but then you can never tell - because we can't stop change.
ReplyDeleteThanks Rully-ully. Will keep writing, it's a good way to ramble out things that I didn't even know I wanted to say!
I think you should start a blog - I'd love to knwo what's going on that mind of yours.
you can tell. if things didn't change, think of where you'd be. i mean, to get truly mindfucked, you wouldn't even exist, because your parents never grew up, they never met; nothing would exist, without a starting point, and an ending point, and the change between. you wouldn't have met any of your friends, or crushed any of your hearts, or just, given into the absolute rapture of so many moments.
ReplyDeleteyou should only look back at things in happiness, never for want of. every new change is a new spark, a new chance, a new hope.
i should also ammend: a new fight, a new test, a new mark of courage.
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