Do you ever get that feeling in your chest when you realise that, someone you thought you knew has hidden something from you, a part of themselves that they didn't want you to know about and they didn't want to include you in.
Looking at pictures, I'm getting that feeling now and I know that it shouldn't upset me, but in a weird way it does. Could you imagine, someoneyou've known for almost a decade, someone at one time or other you would have thought you'd be able to share anything and everything with...just...not wanting you in this part of their lives.
It's funny what, we as human beings, see as our own and what we will and won't share with those around us. I know there are certain things that I'm not prepared to talk about - with anybody - and other people have their things that they won't share with one person but will with another...
I wonder if it's because of what reaction they think they'll get and not wanting to face rejection, or whether they're so totally oblivious to what the other person wants and needs from them that the thought just never pops into their heads to share that piece of themselves.
I'm tired, and nostalgic/sad/out of sorts/chestpains when I think about it.
Bed time.
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