I don't come on here much anymore. No one reads this so what's the point? But then i think, that kind of is the point. I want this to be like a diary, and no one else need read this but me.
My friends - some of them at least - some of the things they do...baffle me. I'm being selfish in this right now I know, and I'm not saying what I want in any order but I know what I'm trying to say.
They will be on their phones the entire time I'm with them, even when I'm talking to them, there they are, texting other people, having private conversations with other people. If you wanted to talk to them so goddamned much, go and hang out with them and don't even worry about spending time with me. They sit on their phones so fucking much when I'm with them then every fucking time I message them, it takes half a day to get a response.
Am I not worthy enough to get a prompt fucking reply, and yet everyone else that you text gets to have hours of conversation with you in a row.
What the hell.
And then there are others who crave attention and I give it to them, yet I never really get the same amount back. Sook sook, whinge whinge. Well everybody wants a little bit of attention, and right now I want it. Why is it that, for example, friend A is sad so me and friend B make them feel better. Then if friend B is sad, I do the same thing yet friend A & B do the whole 'you're awesome' 'no, you're awesome, and great and blah blah blah' and when I'm sad I get nothing.
And again, there's people who know you're free, know that you're bored or at home - so they get together, posting about being all together and they don't invite you. Don't ask if you want to come with them, you get nothing. You get left out and it's bullshit. So you do it back, and the cycle continues.
It doesn't help that I don't like telling people how I'm really feeling. I know I should open up more but really, it just come sout as bitchy and then people get defensive.
Goddammit - I hate people. And friends just get under my skin. They're like family - they piss you off but you couldn't live without them, couldn't get rid of them even if you tried.
And again, there's people who know you're free, know that you're bored or at home - so they get together, posting about being all together and they don't invite you. Don't ask if you want to come with them, you get nothing. You get left out and it's bullshit. So you do it back, and the cycle continues.
ReplyDeleteSo true!!!
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ReplyDeleteThank-you for that. I honestly don't know who I'm writing for. One minute, i want no one to read it and the next I want evveryone to read it.
ReplyDeleteI have yet to decide, but thank-you for this, makes me smile.